a piece of an old mail to an oldnew friend

i just feel like since i turned 21 everything is wrong...people say that every seventh year theres a huge change in your life.
i know that this is the change i know i have to make decisions that i would rather run away from but i have to face them on my own cause life brought out it for me like the only person who could be by my side is not here.so i have to make it on my own.
you know im not only talking about being lovers,absolutely not cause we are not.im talking about finding someone who moves you and says YOU ARE THE SHIT MAN,you do it in a right way and you just have to know that you are perfect as you are,you dont need anyone,just face it.
and who takes you out and shows you that beautiful city in the morning lights while you are riding bikes and makes you feel like you are seriously beautiful and it makes you proud that you feel like a good person.